Calm....

Here are somethings that I heard or read which helped me see things a lil clearer....

"Dude....know your place in this world...."

"So....how many times have u failed again?"

"Tip #1 for survival: Stay calm, dont give up, outlast the problem."

"Dude, your just a failure man. Give it up."

Last one was especially painful...years and years of that, yea it gets to you. So now I cant really do much but to just start from where i left off...Cant imagine myself old and thinking of how my life would be like if I did the stuff I wanted to do. I dont want that kind of life, I wanna live >.<

Lone...

As the title suggests....lone as in alone, yea, works out better for me. I feel I am better off being on my own...Not relating to people around me which has turned out to be such a pain for me....But either ways, I think I function better by myself...I mean I dont mind being nice to people and stuff...its just that some people dont get it. Some dont appreciate it and some of them just take advantage of....yea. So yea, these are the sort of stuff that turns me down....Tried to help but...nvm. Being close is not always a good thing....Sometimes i think its better for me to shut off from the rest of the world =.=....

Signing out!

Gone Solo

Carrying that banner,
I was either stupid or crazy,
Either way....I know now what to do, and what I have done wrong,
Its been so crazy,
Time to stop doing what I have done for so long,
And face the cold hard truth......

Making Amendments: Being what I want to be.

The truth is something that will bring us closer,

The lies will distance us farther and farther....,

So, In all of what I have done,

The final option will be not to run,

But to be what I want.

Making Amendments.....

Best of life

Truth be told, everything isnt really looking good for me...Everything I have done so far and move out to accomplish, has failed or seems to have a bleak come back...
But in the spirit of all the shits I have gone through and optimism, I cant really stop here :) Life is too short for us to make such a big fuss about small stuffs...we all move on, and thats the best part =D

Time and time again

Time and time again, we are reminded of why we have to be grateful for everything we have and not take anything for granted. Yesterday gave me the heads up on this, and I am so glad it did :). And thus end the really short entry, haha.

Comfortable

Woo hoo, finally found time and energy to blog haha^^. I just finished designing the 2nd B.psych t-shirt...its nothing but, thats wat I get for putting stuff up last minute hahaha. Anyways, Carment asked me to design a few "just for fun" B.psych t-shirts for the student council (Dum Dum DUM!!) to have a look at. Apparently according to xinch the student council (eerie violin in the background) had a professional done the t-shirt design last time which...was....rejected? :S. I dunno, I just hope everyone will like what I cooked up haha.
Anyways, how was my week? Its been pretty great haha. Finally got done with my internship(Me want paycheck!!!!!! :p). It was great, I really learnt alot of stuff during the 2 months I have spent with YouthMalaysia. From the very first day at UPM till the very last event at the Naitonal Museum. Its been really great ^^, the experience( or in RPG terms, "you have gained 1,000,000 exp" :p)good and bad, really taught me alot in terms of how to deal with people, how to handle logistics during event and at the office, and how believing in oneself, can bring you to many places ^.^. The 2 months I spent there was really really and I really really mean it, awesome. Plus the places I get to travel to and not spend a single cent on foods and accomodations hahaha , and our work trips are more like roadtrips than work haha. I remember the time we were heading to Kedah for an event and we made a stop right after a toll and before the left turning to the Penang Bridge. I jokingly said to my boss
"Hey, since we are so close to Penang, lets make a lunch stop there haha.". Little did I expect...we actually made the left turn to the Penang Bridge lollololol.

*Van makes a detour off the main Highway.*

Shean: Wat the......we are seriously gonna have lunch in Penang?!?!

After crossing the bridge into Penang, we just stopped by a random food court and ordered lots of stuff haha. The best thing about the foods in Penang is that it tastes soo much better and its soo much cheaper than the food in Kuala Lumpur lol. It was really great, made the hell of my day haha. Little did I know, we were actually required to head back to Penang for the last leg of the Gegar U event, and the best part is that we got to stay in a 4-star hotel ^^ and was able to try out all the famous dishes in Penang haha.
By far, the creepiest hotel was the one we stayed in when we had our event in Tanjung Malim =.=. Mirrors everyone maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan, wtffffffffffffffffffffff. Thank good ness I shared a room with few other guys cause the single bedrooms had a mirror hanging directly in front of where the bed was situated +.+. Scaryyyyyyyyyyyyy maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan. But the good part about our trip to Tanjung Malim was the food again haha, found this really awesome, laid back restaurant in the middle of no where that had really good western/eastern food and the bill also managed to drive the accountant crazy, RM200 was spent on meals for 9 ppl that night +.+. But yea, awesome travelling experience nonetheless lol :p
Anyways, gotta go to bed now and wow...I really out did my blogging this time haha...and I actually wanna type some more lol...O well, till next time, Laterz!

Back

Just got back from the museum and it was really fun...and also tiring lol. Two hours of sleep makes staying up for two days seems like forever lol. Anyways, time to take a well earn snooze...

Betterment

Theres a saying that each of our lifes has already been predetermine, and the best thing that each of us can do is go along with whatever that has been given to us, and see it as a blessing rather than a thorn on a paw.
I have already carried myself as far as I can. Every thing that needs to be finished has already been done. All sides are covered and the next best thing I can do is to just move on to the next stage in life, to finally start moving on and stop whatever I have been trying to fix ever since High school...
I am really grateful and thankful for all the experiences I have been through ^^ and also felt truly blessed for being able to come out of those events with my sanity intact haha. Its been really crazy and I guess its really time to just drop it...and move on to whatever that needs to be done, and just be happy with what surprises life has installed for me ^^.

Back

Yay! Finally done with the Gegar U events!!!! No more Gegar U! I dont have to go back and forth between Subang 2 and the venue! Dont have to listen to that Gegar U song by Siti Nurhaliza!And best of all, more sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! haha. Need to go to sleep now...been a really long day, did the final venue. Even though it was a shambles due to lack of crowd turn up =.= but it was none the less a relieve because it was the final venue for our Gegar U! event ^^^^^^^ plus there was free kenny rogers at the venue too hahaha. It was really great, the whole event and all, good experience and really really thankful for all those experiences, wouldnt trade it for anything else =)

About time

Perfectly happy...thats how I am describing my situation now haha. After all these times, I guess one of the harshests lesson I have learnt is to just be happy no matter what, good or bad...just keep on moving. No matter what the situation is, just be happy or glad about it...it makes things so much easier...I can second that from my experience...it really helps, I dont know how much simpler I can put it. So from now on, things are gonna be different for me, I won't complain about stuff that dont matter, and I wont try other ppl's day miserable +.+. I am just gonna stop it here, its really time to just move on and stop thinking like a kid, time to change...about time.
On a lighter note ^^, just came home from Metro Tabernacle 25th annivesary dinner. 9-course meal ^^,the dessert was awesome....Guess the highlight of the dinner was the lucky draw, the grandprize was an acer laptop lol....was waitin for the dude to call my number haha but didnt work out +.+. O well...the meal was good enuf lol...the sweetened dumplings, graaaaaaah!
And now to somethin that wont make anyone hungry, the Gegar U! event is comin to an end(thank god....), and the final event will be help in Penang which will be my home for a week from the 13th to the 19th. I wish I can say its a vacation....most of the days will be spent working on the final event. Probably the one that would take up the most time is the event that Will be help in the Penang International Sports Arena(P.I.S.A. fyi lol). The will be a 50 hour non stop event with each of us taking 12 hour shifts lol. I dont wanna complain much...just the fact that I am gettin out of KL is better than nothin lol and also being able to travel a bunch of crazy ppl makes it even better hahaha. Anyways, gotta start packing up for the trip now.

Laterz!

And so, we move on

Sometimes....I just wanna get goin and just move on with my life, but theres always that one thing that keeps holding us back +.+! Mistakes that we made...that some how haunts us....I guess this is where the phrase Ignorance is bliss comes in handy...I dunno, as much as I hate being emo, I just got one more thing to settle...then its a smoother sail for me there on after...*sigh*

Practice Silence

I guess sometimes its just good to sit back, be quiet, be patient, and just watch life go by. Cant always expect to have every single thing to go our way in life +.+ but we can always go with the flow ^^ and that is probably the best way...I dont know...i guess sometimes its just good for me to shut up and listen lol. Cause when I thought about it....most of my troubles starts from not listening and also not putting things into consideration. Right now, its really hard for me to care about things..I think its just best for me to sit down, shut up, and learn...its so much better than charging in stupidly =.=

Hey! First Post!

OMg...just got home from Lim kok Wing after spending almost the whole day there setting up for the event tmrw, and not to mention the call time for tmrw is 7 am O.o. The internship has been great so far...got to meet new and interesting ppl, learnt some new stuff, and gained quite a lot of experiences lol (as in events can be really a pain sometimes >.<). Overall, I would really rate the time I have spent in this company positively (except the occasional errands like fetchin water =.=) and I actually would not mind comin back to work for youthmalaysia.com lol, its a really fun place haha.

Tagline: YouthMalaysia.com, The place to be Yo! :p

Lol.....anyways, these few months have been a lil insane for me...been thru alot (and yea, including internship lol), learnt alot, hurt alot >.<, and....got lots of things to talk abouts haha. I think overall, to sum up what I have "absorbed" so far is that, we should all feel blessed for our lives and be thankful for it and just make the best out of it lol... Previously, I would always just make such a huge fuss about things that it drives me crazy lol >.<. But yea....I never really appreciated every thing around me until recently..and yea...thats pretty much for my first post haha. Time for me to go to bed....gotta leave the house at abouts 6 am tmrw lol =.=....
Anyways, have a wonderful day folks. Laterz!